I’m not sure quite why I thought teaching high school would be any different from teaching elementary kids.  Today was the first day, and it was crazy.  Schedule changes, random kids walking in and out of my classroom because they didn’t know where their class was. Crazy.  Then there was class itself.  Each of my class has its own personality, and I don’t know how to respond to that.  One class is extremely talkative, another could care less, and so on.  It’s hard to have to adjust to those classes and learn how to “reign in” the crazy ones and try to bring the quiet ones out of their shell.  Throughout the course of the day I had kids poking each other (which I thought stopped in middle school at the latest…!!), making inappropriate comments, cutting up, trying to get me to let them out early, I mean the list goes on and on!  By the end of the day I could not wait to get home and lay on my couch and watch some Friends!  I can’t wait for the next couple of weeks to go by so I have my kids established in some sort of routine. And myself as well.  I’m still not quite sure what I’m doing on Thursday…! Oh well, it’ll happen.  It’s still crazy to think I have my own classroom and the things I say and do in there could change someone’s life.  Some of my kids are fighting for recognition and just wanting to be heard.  I have two girls in one class who are pregnant, and that just makes me so sad.  My biggest prayer is that God uses me to make a difference in each of those kids’ life and that through me God is able to be seen.  I believe that each of those kids is in there for a reason, and I pray I can make use of this opportunity.

God, please help me to be a great teacher.  Not only a teacher, but role model to all of these kids, and someone they can go to if no one else.  Help me to be firm yet loving and let them know that I do care about all of them.  And help me that I don’t go crazy by the time this is all over!