I think I’m a workaholic. And I say that wishing it wasn’t so. I need a break from work soooo bad. Teaching is definitely not what I thought it was. This past month has been the hardest month ever for me. I can’t get over how emotionally draining it is to do this. Seeing and experiencing all of the different things I do as a teacher makes me realize how lost the world is. How lost Greensboro is. It makes me so sad, and I think it affects me so much because I want to change it all. I want to be able to rescue these kids at my school. This past week was ridiculous at my school. There were multiple fights (one of my students was in the worst one, and not as the victim), kids being extremely disrespectful, our school was put on lockdown, multiple suspensions (3 were my kids alone), and on top of all of this having to deal with the kids in my classes, being yelled at and cursed at and having to plan and get all of my kids passing. The good days are starting to get few and far between. I just pray I can get through this year with my sanity and my kids passing. Also for this school and these kids. That they would come to know the Lord and start to respect those around them and value their education and want to do something with their life. I do thank God soo much for those kids who I have built relationships with and make it worth coming to school for that day. I just hope that this gets better. For those kids, for the school, for the teachers around me, especially the teacher down the hall who is ready to quit. I pray she sees God’s plan through all of this and knows why he put her in this situation and what he plans on teaching her through this experience. Also that he gives her the strength to make it through each day and those kids she is having problems with do not destroy her joy of teaching. I pray that for me as well. Because the problem isn’t the teaching part. It’s the discipline part and the rudeness and disrespect. And time. I need more of it. We all do! I guess I rambled on enough. I hope I have the time to make posts more often. Hope you all are doing well and school, work, etc. is great!