2:56.  That’s what time it is right now.  3:35.  That’s the time I’ve been waiting for since about Tuesday night of last week!  5 days without seeing any of my students. Man am I pumped!! My sister from Chicago is coming with her boyfriend and my nephew and are staying with me tonight. I am sooo excited! I haven’t seen them in over a year! And we’re pretty sure her boyfriend is gonna propose to her, so that is exciting too! I love him, and think this will be really good for her and Alex (my nephew). And my dad is cancer free! So much to give thanks for this year, it’s crazy! God is just amazing.

However….the holidays always seem so couply. I’m the ONLY one in my family who is single. The only one. This is something I have been struggling with for a while. My single-ness.  I know it’s a blessing, and I should think of it that way. But man it’s hard. Especially since I feel so ready to settle down. It seems as if I spend a lot of time talking to God about this, and asking him when the right time will be, and why isn’t it now?! I see couples and families all around me and just really want to be at that place in my life right now. You know that saying always a bridesmaid never a bride? That’s me. To the core. Through all of this, I really don’t want to lose my focus on God and what he’s doing in my life through my single-ness. Because I know it’s not gonna last forever (hopefully!!) and I want to make sure I’m becoming the woman God wants me to be for whoever he has for me. But I don’t feel as if I can do that if I’m focused more on wanting to be in a relationship. I spend most of my time either praying God makes these feelings for the guy I like to just go away or for him to do something about it. Such a waste. I can’t even really believe I’m opening up about this, because this is way too much of a vulnerable/embarrassing topic! I guess I’m just informing you all to ask that you pray that I don’t lose my focus on God, and continue to seek his will through all of this, even if it isn’t what I would have planned for myself. Also that I can fully enjoy the holidays and celebrate the fact that I’m single rather than thinking of it as a bad thing.

 I hope you all have amazing Thanksgivings with your family! Can’t wait to see you all on Sunday and hear all about it!